19th
voyeur
i find myself periodically virtually checking up on TTT, via her livejournal, just to see how she’s doing. today, i saw she had 2 updates: first one was about the TI music festival. sounds like she’s having a blast, made me wonder what sonic worlds i was missing out on. made me wish i could join in on that picnic in a backpack. i was feeling nostalgic for the world-that-never-was-but-confused-with-might-have-been.
then i got to her second post about the mountain winery concert. wow, she saw frank black. i love that man. i really, really wanted to be there. how come i didn’t know about these things anymore? i am so out-dated that i no longer hear about event dates.
then i read on. somebody killed themselves at her concert. horrible. i felt many things at once, which made me both ashamed and confused:
- i wish i were there to comfort her
- i remember the time the bicyclist intentionally/inadvertently swerved into an SUV while i was jogging next to him
- frank black is awesome
