16th
confessional
i’m logging on from the tail end of my japan trip. swirls of bad karma and misunderstandings are leaking from my だめんず activities.
i hooked up with aguri. it just kind of happened. now she won’t talk to me. she thinks i told tadashi about her new job assignment. everything is secrets and false faces in japan.
saori dumped my ass. i don’t fully understand what really happened, but something about another guy, and me not willing to make her my gf. i’m sad. she was special. she’s on that list of smiles. she seemed so kind, yet she left me from the cruel side of her phone.
last week was in china. saw hui-min, sandra, and 2 other princetonians (i-shin and nick). seeing sandra almost brought back the old crush. i went to expo. talk about people mountain, people sea. they packed us like cattle in this steel fenced maze prior to the expo opening, and i never imagined it could be possible to be in a wide open football field-sized area and still feel claustrophobic. i learned a new way of dealing with all the rude chinese people. you ask them what kind of nongming they are. the shanghai folks hate that but they know they are doing something wrong. the actual nongming get put into place. there is no way for them to recover with such a heavily innocent question.
i got to see my bro, which was great. i missed him. blood does run thick. definitely thicker than the cocktail i used to pick up saori at heartland.
